Destiny's Dreamland

Ever find yourself caught in a whirlwind of conflicting emotions as you approach the end of a beloved series? Trust me, you’re not alone. Picture this: You’ve immersed yourself in a literary universe, bonded with characters, laughed, cried, and felt every twist and turn on the plot. Then suddenly, you realize you’re nearing the last few pages , and a sense of impending loss washes over you. It’s heartbreaking right? Always gets me straight in the heart.

That’s the beauty of a great story – the joy of discovery intertwined with the sorrow of a farewell.

Lately, I’ve found myself in a predicament – what I like to call a somewhat reading funk. It’s a strange limbo where I’m both eager and hesitant to dive into the final chapters of two series I hold dear to my heart: Hades x Persephone Saga by Scarlett St. Claire and Once Upon A Broken Heart series by Stephanie Garber. These two series not only got me back into my love of reading. They also helped me during a rough time in my life.

When my significant other went into the military, I had a lot more time on my hands than normal and needed a way to keep myself busy. During that free time I revisited my love for reading. I’ve always loved to read but not like this. This time when I picked up a book I was fully immersed in that world, all my anxieties and worries of life went away for a moment. It became my peace, a way for me to escape while I was going through one of the most difficult times of my life. Of course my favorite genre is romance so I had to put a pause to my reading because I started not to enjoy it as much due to me missing my partner. What once was my escape became a thing that trapped me in my anxious thoughts. Now that  my significant other is back home safely, I am now on the last book of each series. I love these books and now have no excuse however I find myself procrastinating. Waiting for months to know what will unfold yet now that I have them in my grasp I am hesitating. Why?

If I can be completely honest with you dear reader I just don’t think I’m ready for something to end. I am in a spot in my life where there is a lot of uncertainty of what comes next. Endings can feel dauntingly finite, like closing a cherished chapter without knowing if another will follow. Yet, amidst this uncertainty, there’s a glimmer of hope in the “what if” – a whisper of possibility that weaves its way through our thoughts, reminding us of the magic inherent in the unknown. Perhaps it’s the fear of how things will conclude that keeps us tethered to the present moment, clinging to the comfort of familiarity.

So, here I am, stuck between a rock and a hard place, torn between the desire to finish and the reluctance to let go. I know its an eventuality, my curiosity will get to me in the end. Until then, I will cherish every moment spent procrastinating, fantasizing the what ifs, and creating my own theories.

In the end, in embracing this uncertainty, we also embrace the potential for growth, transformation, and new beginnings. Here’s to the journey – the highs, the lows and everything in between. And who knows? Maybe, just maybe there’s another adventure waiting just around the corner, ready to capture our hearts. After all, like Flynn Ryder says to Rapunzel in Tangled “Well, that’s the good thing I guess. You get to find a new dream.”

So let us journey forth, dear reader, with open hearts and minds, ready to embrace whatever endings and beginnings may come our way. To the next dream and to the next amazing story!